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test [05 Mar 2007|08:15pm]
[ mood | bored ]

The Everything Test

There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all.

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Personality
You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more lazy than workaholic, more traditional than rebel, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are intellectual (87%), romantic (86%), adventurous (75%), horny (58%).

Stereotypes
Punk Rock80%
White Trash50%
Geek50%
 
Life Experience
Sex29%
Substances14%
Travel26%

Politics
Your political views would best be described as Socialist, whom you agree with around 83% of the time.
  Socioeconomic
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Middle Class. You make more than 0% of those who have taken this test, and 19% less than the U.S. average.

If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13.
By the way, your hottness rank is 50%, hotter than 72% of other test takers.

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You Only Tell Me You Love Me When You're Drunk [13 Feb 2007|09:52pm]
[ mood | listless ]

What a performance tonight
Should I react or turn off the light?
Looks like you're picking a fight
in a blurring of wrong and right
But how your mood changes
You're a devil, now an angel
Suddenly subtle and solemn and silent as a monk
You only tell me you love me when you're drunk

It's better than nothing, I suppose
some doors have opened, others closed
but I couldn't see you exposed
to the horrors behind some of those
Somebody said: listen
don't you know what you're missing?
You should be kissing him
instead of dissing him like a punk
But you only tell me you love me when you're drunk
You only tell me you love me when you're drunk

All of my friends keep asking me
Why, oh, why
do you not say goodbye?
If you don't even try
you'll be sunk
'cause you only tell me you love me when you're drunk

What's the meaning
when you speak with so much feeling?
Is it over when you're sober?
Am I junk?
You only tell me you love me when you're drunk
You only tell me you love me when you're drunk
_____________________________________________________

An old Pet Shop Boys song, not going to explain it.

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[10 Sep 2006|05:25pm]
[ mood | tired ]

So apparently my car smells like meat.

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trip to Dixie [02 Sep 2006|11:11pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

So I took my mom and sister to the Dixie Outlet mall today and almost got into an altercation. After following the directions from Mapquest we were kinda lost, but i knew we were close, so my mom said to pull into the gas station. After getting directions I have to exit the gas station onto the road going right, because it was one way at that point due to a median. I had to get into the left turn lane though but it was backed up past the gas station, so i waited for the light to turn green so I could get onto the road and into the left turn lane quickly. Thats when this guy comes up behind me and honks once at me, my sister gave him a dirty look from the back seat, then the guy honks again, so she proceeds to tell him to calm down and wait patiently. By now it had been about 45 seconds and he really didnt want to wait, however there was plenty of room on either side of me so he could have gone onto the road and to the right, but as I later found out, he wanted to go the wrong way on a one way section of road.

So he honks at me again and pulls out in front of me and drives onto the road going the wrong way the whole time uttering colourful words like "fuck you" so then I give him the finger thinking that would be the end of it. Apparently that was the red button, turns out he doesnt like it when ppl give him the finger. He stops his truck, on the road facing oncoming traffic mind you, and walks over to me. I roll down the window cause I want to hear what he has to say, I did very briefly think about just driving away, but then thought better of it. He uses some more colourful language to the tune of "Dont give me the fucking finger. Shove your finger up your fucking ass!" I calmly said to him "What are you going to do about it?" then he repeated his earlier utterances and then I said thanks and have a nice day. Definately wasnt worth getting beat up over it, he was certainly a lot bigger than I am, and I've never had a real fight in my life, so I would have no idea what to do.

After telling ppl this story, what I should have done is roll the window up and let him yell all he wanted the whole time ignoring him and therefore pissing him off further.

I also got a new pair of jeans!!!

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[21 Aug 2006|10:49pm]
[ mood | okay ]

My mother and I went to see a psychic on saturday, it was quite an experience. I was expecting maybe 20 minutes of her time, but we had at least an hour each. She did tarot cards and then she read her crystal ball. She said lots of interesting things about me and impressed me when she said things about me that she wouldnt have known just by looking at me. She didnt seem to clue into my being gay though, but i guess we can't be perfect. She said I am the magician, that I have the tools to make things happen, but i need to use them properly and that my current job is pinning me down. I am not interested in a monday to friday 9-5 job but something more interesting. It's quite true because I would like to be a writer or a dj, which are very much not 9-5 jobs. She said I need to focus on what I want and just do it. She also said that I don't speak up or defend myself very much, and that I should, but to be careful about saying too much.

I'm kinda excited about the Georgian Mall expansion opening wednesday, I also get paid on wednesday. I'm going on wednesday with James and then on Thursday with my mommy. I really want to look around H&M. My mom wants to go to all of her girly stores that i somehow tolerate. She bought me a nice shirt from Bluenotes on saturday, I like it.

James and I went to the drive in last night, we saw Snakes on a Plane and then Clerks 2. Both were pretty good actually. Snakes on a Plane is cheesy, but you have to go in expecting that, it delivers just what it says, snakes and they're on a plane. Clerks 2 i was impressed with, I went in not expecting too much, I was there to see Snakes on a Plane, but i gave it a chance. It had some really funny moments, especially when Wanda Sykes showed up. And of course the Pussy Troll.

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[08 Apr 2006|12:30am]
i knew i would forget something. One of Pinks' new songs is called Lonely I think. It explains a concept I think James feels about me. Basically it says that since I see him everyday he doesnt have a chance to miss me. He gets sick of seeing me everyday and that resentment is always underlying. So I have to wonder, by living with James am I thereby killing any chance of him wanting me again?? More questions and no answers, lol.

Oh and i'm reading the Da Vinci Code now, I know, I"m a cheapskate and decided to wait for the paperback. Its really good though, it's fiction but you definately learn a lot along the way. Like the number phi, i had no idea about, it's totally fascinating and makes you wonder if there is a divine power cause it seems too unplausible to be a coincidence.
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[07 Apr 2006|11:02pm]
[ mood | confused ]

A few things to say, i'll probably forget something and it'll all sound like a muddle and very incoherant.

Pink's new album is really good, my fave song is probably Long Way From Happy, it kinda describes how i feel, and have felt for the last while. I just want james back, you know? It seems like such a simple request, and he's the only thing I really want, so why does it have to be so difficult??

"Long Way To Happy"

One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Do you know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottem of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy


I've just been accused of eavesdropping, I just wonder if this is what I'm in for for the next 16 months if I sign the new lease. I really do want to live with James, but I dont know if I can handle him being with other guys and I'm not sure of anything. I need answers but I dont know who to ask, or even what to ask.

Another good song on Pink's new cd is Dear Mr. President, I actually almost cried when I heard it the first couple of times, right at the part where she sings "What kind of father might hate his daughter if she were gay?" That line really got to me. I will never understand why a father might even possibly hate his daughter because of who she chooses to love, it just doesnt make sense to me. Being gay is who a person is. And dont hate a person for who they are.

I think I was going to add something else too, but I forget it now. Maybe it had something to do with my decision to remain single for the rest of my life. I dunno, I'm eternally confused now. I just dont know what to do or who to turn to. I should go see Tamara White-Wolf. In some ways I see the next year of my life being hell, but in other ways I am much more optimistic. I wish I were smarter and could build a time machine and just go back a few years and make everything right with James and fix my mistakes. My life needs to come with an eraser and some white-out. Better make that a huge eraser, I make a lot of mistakes.

1 doesn't care don't care how small it is ... tolerance is for gays

sextrology test [24 Mar 2006|09:46am]
Cancer Man
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Heterosexual


Of any man, he is the premier softie, loving to kiss, hug, spoon, and moon. He needs that showering of cuddly mother love as much as getting his rocks off. On that score, nothing imparts more of a pure erotic thrill than letting an energetic top woman have her way with him, boobs bouncing, as she barks imperatives and instructions. In fact, very little in Cancers man's vision of worthwile sex doesn't include breasts in one way or another. He is the zodiac's preeminent tittie fucker, and most of his sexual fantasies involve big bosomed babes in the preverbial pole position. He is anything but squeamish when faced with a partner's outpourings, a proclivity that may easily extend to the peepee department. As well, he's way up for anal sex; though if his mate flashes red flag, he is fine with forgoing it. Of course, he loves being blown- what man doesn't? � bit for him the act imparts a particulary soothing and secure, pacifying sensation. He can be fairly kinky in is makeup; especially where his love for a dominant women drives him to the extreme. For the most part, however, the Crab rarely acts on his more intricate fantasies. He seems designed to propogate, parent, provide and protect. Cancer will typically immerse himself in that household reality, focusing on his primal needs to be the pristine husband, the unadulterated consort, regulary coddling, cooing, and conceiving with his woman. Just as he is almost pathologically intrigued by those de rigueur female bodily functions- if any man would think nothing of having sex with his woman when, for instance, she's not quite finished with her period, it's the Cancer man. Likewise, he is all over his mate when she's pregnant. The Crab has a the distinct sexual habit of sneaking in when his woman least expects it. One would be hard pressed to find a longtime partner of the Cancer man who hasn't actually awoken to his slowly shagging her, the actual experience being subtly woven into her dreamscape.





Straight turn-ons:

Aggressive women, Nordic, Germanic types, tall women, big breasts, implants, kissing, licking, sucking, (active) oral, (passive/active) discipline, titty-fucking, waitresses/flight attendants, (active) anal sex, submission fantasies, strippers, porn stars, pregnancy, lactation, school girls, shaved, waxed genitals, (passive) bondage, leather, biker chicks, (passive) golden showers, cuddling, spooning, home porn, hotel rooms, crops, whips, nymphomaniacs, dominatrixes




Homosexual


Unlike many gay men, the homosexual Cancer may find himself physically excited by women as well; and he may even reach for bi porn over the purely gay variety. Still, he'll mainly watch the guys doing the women � nothing imparts a bigger thrill than a hetero he-man in action. Gay cancer dates a lot, but rarely second dates. That is, until he finds his perfect man- the exact big daddy anitithesis of his father � wordly, connected, cultured, and hopefully, brimming with cash. While straigh Cancer will make up for his orphaned feelings in nurturing rearing of his children, gay Cancer often calls for a do over of his childhood. He wants what he never had: a childlike excistence, in a stimulating, urbane, and sophisticated setting, in which currents are discussed over breakfast, hilidays are planned, and real estate investments are debated. Of all the gay men in the zodiac, Cancer can be the biggest sissy. So as if being son and lover isn't enough, he will also play the role of wife and mother. He is decidedly attracted to straight ultramasculine guys, often making love bonds with men who have heretofore been heterosexual and, often, married. He loves being the object of a partner's doting adoration, but soon, he'll want more than fatherly sugar from daddy. In truth, it would shock most anyone who knew him in light of day discover what this man gets up to in the dark, if not in back rooms of gay bars. As unsqueamish as straight Cancer is, the gay Crab can be that much more into scat. He generally draws the line at pain, however, in any way shape or form. And despite the darker depths of his sexual desire, gay Cancer is still a sucker for tender romance, seemingly so utterly content indulge in the scented candles, champange and bubble bath scene.


Gay turn-ons: Daddies, bears, hairy bodies, nipple play, piercings, clamps, bottoming, swallowing, rimming, showers, bathing, bi porn, (passive) b+d, humiliation, torture, slaving, gags, blindfolds, collars, cross-dressing, kink, raunch, lite scat, frottage, glory holes, tea rooms, truckers, bikers, skinheads, whips, chains, slings, rubber, latex, watersports, (passive) lite s+m, felching, rape fantasies





My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 0% on Sex
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 22% on Starsign
Link: The Sextrology Test written by KamikazeParrot on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test



I personally think this is way off for me, but I posted it anyway. I can name more things wrong with it than right. I am definately not into scat, no matter how light it is, lol. I do like blindfolds and showers though. I am not into the whole "daddy" thing and I'm not into ultra-masculine types either. Believe me, James is not ultra-masculine. I am a pussy though apparently.
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Latter Days [16 Mar 2006|11:22pm]
[ mood | morose ]

I just finished watching Latter Days, it's a really good movie, I had read the book previously and bought the dvd from ebay. I was very impressed about how well it was done and how close to the book it was too. The movie said a lot to me and reminded me of how special I felt when I was with James and how I want that back more than anything. I cried a bit I have to admit, party because of the subject matter and partly because of how much I miss being with James. I felt like everything in the world was perfect and now I feel like the opposite is true. I dont know what to do or what i want to do. I want to hug James and cuddle him more than anything, I want to make him as happy as I am when I'm with him. Anyhoo, it was a good movie and I would recommend it to anyone, especially people who dont understand that two men really can love each other and love can conquer all.

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[11 Mar 2006|11:40pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Even though I'm pretty sure that no one actually reads this, I'll write it anyway.

So I've started tanning, James said he could tell right away cause I was all red, lol. I'm going to start going to the gym this week on the base.

I just got home a while ago from going out for Thai food with some friends, then we went back to her place and watched tv for a while. My stomach doesnt feel well right now. I had a spicy thai curry dish, it was very good.

James has gone out now so I dont know what to do, I should probably just go to bed, I've been up since 430 this morning.

Umm, nothing else to say really, see y'all later.

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[26 Feb 2006|12:33pm]
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Election [25 Jan 2006|01:32pm]
On Monday the Canadian general election happened. I was not very happy with the result, I am an ndp supporter and while the ndp did well, the conservatives were elected to a minority government.

Conservatives 124
Liberal 103
Bloc Quebecois 51
NDP 29
Independent 1

A party needs 155 for a majority so the conservatives will need help to get anything done.

The Conservatives have made many promises, about $30 billion dollars worth, we'll see how they plan to pay for it now. The GST is supposed to be cut to 6% immediately, and luckily for the tories, ppl seem to have forgotten that they are the party that brought it in. Brian Mulroney actually expanded the senate by 8 seats so he could get the GST into law. Canadian society as we know it is very much under threat. The conservatives have gotten their money from right wing radical groups and those groups will be very keen to see their investment pay dividends. The new legalization of same-sex marriage will be reviewed again and put to a free vote in the house of commons. I am very disappointed that he would put a charter right to a free vote in the house of commons. We shall see what happens in the coming months. Services could be cut, rights taken away and Canada will now he very much involved with all US foreign policy. Canadians will be in Iraq, missile defence bases will be erected on Canadian soil in the arctic (at our expense of course), and armed soldiers will be in Canadian streets. The Conservatives have zero seats in the major cities of Toronto, Montreal, Vancouver and Halifax. Will cities be punished??
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Good news - bad news [07 Apr 2005|01:45pm]
[ mood | infuriated ]

I phoned this morning about getting my car fixed because it's leaking gas and taking 5 seconds to start up when the engine's cold. They told me to go in tomorrow morning, they open at 8am. They are good mechanincs and dont' overcharge which I like.

Liverpool beat Juventus 2-1 which is pretty damn good, I was impressed to see that. We did give up the away goal which could come back to haunt us, but as long as we win or draw in Italy we'll be onto the next round, the semi-finals which is bloody brilliant. Full credit to Scott Carson who stepped in and did really well against an amazing Juventus team.

I"m looking at buying a newer car since the one I have keeps breaking. What I'd really like to get is something like a 2000 Infinity or Acura, theyr'e not overly expensive now that they're 5 yrs old but theyre good cars and around $14 000 plus tax which is more than I want to pay. I can probably afford around $200 a month give or take now that James is working. My insurance would skyrocket I'm sure, I mean I'm paying $208 a month for a 1992 K-car thats worth crap, how much would I have to pay to insure a car thats actually worth something??

I'm extremely agree at my union, it seems that the government has decided to slip things into the contract they're giving us that weren't agreed upon. The union didn't pick up on it so I'll be losing a bunch of money. I've always said that our union sucks, this just proves it. So I emailed them today asking if that was legal and the thing is that we voted and ratified a contract, but the contract we have now isn't the one we voted on because the government changed it, so I think that makes the contract null and void since we didn't ratify it. But I guess the union signed it on out behalf so we're SOL. And we get screwed again. We got a dollar an hour raise, but lost our shift and weekend premiums which add up to around $140 a month. It shows that the government isn't afraid to screw us around and they think that our union is stupid, and I guess they proved that is the case. We need to join the auto workers union or something cause for the $40 a month or so in union dues, what are we getting? A horrible union who apparently can't read.

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[13 Aug 2004|01:00pm]
Right now I am so angry at Rafael Benitez I could scream. I saw this coming though, as soon as he was hired as the new manager of Liverpool he wanted to shake things up and bring in lots and lots of Spanish players. So here he goes and sells Danny Murphy for less than he's worth, to Charlton. He wants to give El-Hadji Diouf away, after he cost us ten million pounds to sign. And now he is "powerless" in selling Michael Owen to Real Madrid. Like I fucking believe that! As manager you could have said "No." to Real and went on with the season. But Rafa seems to want to sell all the english players and bring in spanish ones to replace them. For Michael Owen is appears Liverpool will receive 8 million and Antonio Nunez, a spanish player. Now Liverpool are apparently close to signing 2 more spanish players. Liverpool are thought to have agreed a fee in the region of £6million for Barcelona winger Luis Garcia. Another player heading to Merseyside is Real Sociedad's Alonso. The La Liga outfit have already confirmed having talks with the English club, and Thursday reports indicate that a fee in the region of 16 million euros has been agreed. Both deals could be completed today before the Tottenham match.

As soon as Rafa was hired everyone hailed him as the messiah who would lead us to the riches of the championship and beyond, he would be our saviour. I was willing to give him a chance, but there are some things you just don't do, like sell Micheal Owen! How many matches has he won single-handedly for this club? Rafa wasn't at the club more than two days before he was linked with bringing in spanish players, that had me worried. Now my worst fears have become reality. Liverpool are soon to become the Valencia of the north.
3 doesn't care don't care how small it is ... tolerance is for gays

[05 Jul 2004|08:28pm]
[ mood | depressed ]


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[01 Jun 2004|05:12pm]
How Do You Rate?
Your score is 102

LEVEL 6 -- MOSTLY FEMININE

People are starting to place bets that you are gay. You do a lot of things and have a lot of behaviors that are the stereotypical gay feminine traits. You enjoy exploring your feminine side. Most people just assume you are gay, and go on with it, which is just fine with you.
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[21 May 2004|02:21pm]

Your Years at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
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Age
House
Family Line
Dated Draco Malfoy
You are well known for Being the school slut
Percentage of student body you shagged - 75%
How do the staff and students feel about you They LOVE you
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[23 Apr 2004|02:38pm]
I'm an Atheist!



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[22 Mar 2004|01:27am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

So I went to see the new Dawn of the Dead movie. It was pretty good actually, better than I was expecting. It really freaked me out afterwards, I was looking all over to see if zombies were coming for me. I read in Men's Fitness magazine that scary movies actually strengthen your heart. Didn't do too much today, I played Total Club Manager 2004 for a couple of hours, guiding my Liverpool squad to glory, or at least trying to. Then James and I went over his taxes, he's getting a refund of just over $100. Then we went out to FutureShop and grocery shopping. We came back and made quesadillas, they were really good. I ordered a multifunction printer for James, he's been wanting one for a long time, it prints, scans and copies, so it's pretty useful and after rebate, only $90. Back to work tomorrow, grrr.

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